Quarter Life Crisis?

It is a very strange point in my life now. I turn 25 in less than 2 weeks; and if you ask me: Am I what I wanted to be at 25? I am undecided.

This is a season of changes for me. Friends getting married; people going off far far away; my parents almost into retirement. And me? Well; I am just going where the wind takes me; rudderless. I suppose that’s not how it should be once you are 25. You need to have a sense of direction I suppose; but even as I write that; it is extremely difficult for my mind to consider that reality. My friends tell me I still act like a teenager sometimes and some others say I act like a 50 year old. Maybe they are right. But what’s a 25 year old supposed to act like? Well – I am even more confused.

The easy-go attitude seems to be very difficult to shake off for me. Nothing affects me profoundly; despite my outer mask suggesting otherwise. You call me; I always pick up. There’s no bad moment to talk to me. I have seen many people tell; this is a bad time to talk. But honestly I don’t remember a moment (ok one; but that’s it!) when I’ve said that. Others of my age have already started tackling life’s difficult tasks and they already have had that turning point but I am somehow stuck. I started building a house on my own (“my own” is relative) and I thought such a huge responsibility would mean that would make my life change. But it didn’t. Even that for me seems to be a snippet for conversation with my friends and nothing more. It doesn’t give me the tension I wanted it to give me. But no. Not even that. Some people say that’s a good thing; but no; not for me. I am bored; I need some stress to cure it I suppose and to feel like not being an alien in a strange planet.

I have a job I like (despite peer pressure to not; hating your job seems to be in-fashion); I have a steady income; I am surrounded by friends; I have a supportive family and my problems are miniscule compared to others’. Even then I feel incomplete. Every single day; even the productive ones; even the entertaining ones; seems to be one more day wasted. But “wasted” vs what? I am unable to define that.

Is this my quarter life crisis? I think so… and I have no clue as to what the remedy is. Here’s going back to where the wind takes me… see you at the next place I crash into.

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Posted by Anoop Sankar
  • Ginu

    Seriously?? Quarter life crisis? And u say that ur problem is that u don’t have a crisis… ;-)

    This was seriously a bad moment for me to read this post (God! I keep telling that to everyone!!).
    The grass always looks greener on the other side.. Seriously.. Its not!

    And on a more serious note… “Ellathinum athintethaaya samayamundu daasa…” :-D

  • A pointless penny

    hmmm a term used on the mentality of ppl of a certain age group < 30 quarter life crisis
    <40 is mid life crisis? lol ..
    <100 oldage crisis… oh … the last 1 is not there… cos at that age .. noone listens … or doesnt bother much to listen cos the aged will be expected to listen..
    hmmm now lets see..
    wat did i think when i got 25…
    i have a imaginery me… i converse with him every year.. he is a very rude person …who questions my thoughts ..
    actually i had forgetten him all this year …
    and i checked my old notes of conversation with him… my last birthday … and then i heard a laughing voice inside my head.. with a sneer grin… it was him… as usual i reacted and shut him down ; didnt bother to let him question me… but he is still there… heh. the arrogant version of me..
    i guess … in this hasty age… when ppl thrive to be something … more and more… cant call it greed… like something they aspired for… some dont see the time needed for it… and space out or stress out…
    there are others … who dont bother of all that… i fall into those… but it jes do add some void inside… a kindof void… hmmm ok… wat shud i do?
    study? wat? ms! really? yes! wher? germany! got the money? No! then? ill wait! for wat? right time! hehehehehehhehehehehehehehe
    marry? who? someone ? No?
    lonely? *mentally* Yes. *Literally* No.
    work – happy? its ok.
    u sure? hmmm dont know wat shud be pointed as sad or wrong..
    y not? cos that wud mean … giving time to nit pick on things that at current pov or state of mind is not an issue..
    hmmm .. u sure it isint? or u jes dont care? dont care.
    wat to care for? apart from the roles we play… nothing.

    :| … hes back the nasty one… gulp! knaps … u had to post this!??

  • Jen

    On the occasions you act 15 and 50, they may just divide into an approximate result of 25 – which determines the relative state of mind at your age of 25. Perhaps you have very well matured in certain aspects of your perception, but yet remained “unpreferrably” stagnant in other aspects. Yes, it might be considered unconducive for a person trying to achieve and develop a certain passion and drive to account for life, but won’t you say that this is perhaps a, mandatory, slow and rather arduous process most people would experience?

    Passion does not have to come in great quantities. Having it in small doses can be one of life’s most exhiliriating events. You differentiate the thrill of fulfilling such momentary passion from identifying the mundane of tasks you go through most often. You derive a sense of satisfaction from the ability to build your home by having a discussion with your peers, heightening your “self-worth” to a greater extent. Maybe improving oneself with time is part and parcel of this “direction” you are seeking into.

    Maybe sobriety (of life) is dependent on contentment. That you can climb the highest of mountains, dive the deepest of the seas, be a person adept to all talents – and yet feel something is missing.

    To each his own. I certainly hope you find a reason to live your life fulfillingly.

  • http://vishnugopal.com/ Vishnu

    This post perfectly describes how I am too most of the time, although winds somehow landed me in three different jobs (in 3 diff cities) after college.

    Tho you really should come work for MobME for a while. Will put things in perspective :-) Call me! Am leaving India soon.

    Cheers,
    Vishnu

  • Anoop

    @Ginu: Hehehe. I know
    @SSK: Hmmph. I’ve responded to your comment in person I suppose :)
    @Jen: Your comments actually made a lot of sense. Good points to ponder and a whole new perspective. Thanks and welcome to Rusty. Keep reading.
    @Vishnu: Yeah I heard so. Will call!

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  • http://rusty.in Anoop

    Hehe.. will sure try it with you next time I’m in Ernakulam.. ;)